Thirty Animal 動畫旁白設計
The first time I drink，I was suddenly able to tell a girl at my high school that I was mad about her.
I wanted to be “an Irishman”, who could drink a lot of liquor and hold it. Like the drunk Jamie Tyrone.
The years were measured in hangovers , and I did not want to deny myself the exciting, brotherly feeling, I had whenever I went boozing with my friends.
After I quit drinking, everyone in party except me is drinking, and I fight against feeling sorry for myself.
I feel like a kid with a broken chain when everyone else has bicycled around the corner out of sight.
What were the things I was looking for and needed when I drank？ I often find that what I am looking for when I want a drink is not really the alcohol, but the memories and laughter that seemed possible only with a glass in my hand.
I remember how I felt sitting there after work, or watching a Sunday afternoon ball game, but I have to keep reminding myself of the wasting hangovers, the lost money , the days down the drain.
I imagine my problem as an animal living inside me, but it will never die of thirst.
A child, wiser than I was that day, had written that notes.
I am very lucky so far. I do not get mad that I can not drink anymore；I can handle the self－pity that overwhelmed me in my early days of sobriety.